We accept the love we think we deserve...
Ok so like I said last chapter wasn’t as good as I planned so sorry. I will try and add the new people next chapter hopefully so I’m sorry for making you wait so long. P.S. that’s Taylor’s sister Alexa in the side bar.
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The kiss was getting heated. I pulled away and grabbed Justin’s hand and took him up to my room. We then presumed kissing until before I knew it my shorts were off and I was only in my bathing suit once again but Justin was just in his striped boxers.
See you know how I said there were some things that I definitely wasn’t proud of; well losing my virginity was number one on my list. I just got a little tipsy at my first real high school party freshman year and next thing I knew I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I always liked to party and have a good time I would drink and just throw myself at any cute guy that was there.
So my current Justin situation wasn’t new for me but even though I liked being able to let loose and have fun I didn’t want to be branded as a whore for the rest of my life. I didn’t want to lose my virginity to some guy that I didn’t even know at a party but that’s how it happened. There was no going back and changing what happened that night so from then on I didn’t really seem to mind going all the way with someone.
But for some reason this lust I had for Justin was different from the others. I decided against my better judgment and let Justin take my bathing suit top and bottoms of while I pulled off his boxers. This time doing it felt right like it was a natural thing for Justin and I to be on this level of sexual intimacy even when we known each other for an amazingly short amount of time. We were now in the bed once we were done we both laid down on our back taking a breath or two to calm our heartbeats, which at the time were beating out of our chests. It all happened so fast. This morning if you told me that I would be having s.ex with Justin Bieber later tonight I would have told you that you were crazy and to see a therapist pronto but now I just feel complete. Was it wrong for me to feel this way? With all the other guys I’ve slept with I never had this feeling like it was ok and it was meant to be I just felt used and un-needed.
I looked over at Justin to find him staring at me while I was thinking. I decided to be the first one to speak up. “Well that was…” I said not really knowing how to finish the sentence. I looked over at Justin thinking about this.
“Amazing.” He finished for me.
“Was that your first time?” I asked him. I actually wanted to know. I have no clue why it was important to me I guess I just wanted to know more about him.
“Second actually.” He said looking at me with a faraway look in his eyes. “My first time was with my girlfriend right before she died of leukemia.” He finished.
This made me really think. I couldn’t believe what he just said. Maybe he’s the one person who knows what it’s like losing someone you love unconditionally with all your heart. I looked over at him. He was still gazing off. Out of nowhere another question slipped through my lips.
“Did you love her?” I felt bad for asking. It was really none of my business but a part of me was longing to know.
“With all of my heart. I was shattered when she died.” He replied with the saddest look on his face. I’m guessing one that resembles mine when I think about the loss of my dad.
“I’m guessing that wasn’t your first time due to the obvious.” He said looking at me. It was time to spill my heart out to the one person I thought would never understand me the most.
“No, obviously not. Truthfully I lost count.” I said looking down ashamed of what I’ve don’t these past few years. Justin slowly lifted up my chin and kissed me. Quickly but passionately. Even the amazing feeling I got inside didn’t make me feel better.
“Hey what’s wrong? You don’t have to be ashamed of your past.” Justin said looking at me with truth in his eyes. Wow it just didn’t get any better then him did it? But little did he know there was and he was about to get my whole life story.
“You don’t get it Justin there is a lot to be ashamed about. I would go to parties and whore around. It’s amazing I never ended up pregnant. At least your first time was with someone you loved with all your heart.” I managed to get out with tears coming down my face as I continued,”and the worst part is that I can’t even remember my first time or who it was with. Some guy I met at a party who got me a little tipsy and next thing I know I wake up naked in a bed alone with a terrible hangover. I’m sorry your hearing all this and I understand if you don’t’ want to be with a person like me.” I said tearing my eyes away from Justin’s gaze and looked at the wall. I was just waiting to hear him walk out form under the covers and leave this room when he spoke up.
“How could you say that?” I have never felt anything like the connection between us before. Yes, I loved my girlfriend before she died but I can still move on and live my life. It took us a while to get the stage we were at in our relationship, for me to love her as much as I did but instantly when I say you and looked into those beautiful eyes I fell head over heels and if something happened to you I wouldn’t be able to move on. How could I when you couldn’t live the life you should?”
I turned back toward Justin and curled up in his chest while he comforted me until I had calmed down enough to stop crying and pull away. “The worst part is.” I said looking into his gorgeous chocolaty brown eyes as I continued, ”I wasn’t doing it because I liked going to parties and getting drunk and have another guy take another part of me away, I did it to get back at my father for leaving to Iraq. I always told myself that I did it because I chose to or because I wanted this to happen it but I was just lying to myself. It was a selfish thing to do but it was the only thing I could think of and I thought for sure it was going to work, that he was going come back and see what was happening and what had already happened to me and he wouldn’t go back he would stay with me so we could be together again. But, he never found out because he never came back.” Crap the waterworks came again but I didn’t try to be strong and stop them. I just let the tears take over my body. I have never told anyone this before not even my best friends in the whole wide world. They don’t even know that I lost my virginity freshman year. I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my chest. I think God gave me a miracle the one thing I needed. And that thing just so happened to go by the name Justin Bieber.
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The kiss was getting heated. I pulled away and grabbed Justin’s hand and took him up to my room. We then presumed kissing until before I knew it my shorts were off and I was only in my bathing suit once again but Justin was just in his striped boxers.
See you know how I said there were some things that I definitely wasn’t proud of; well losing my virginity was number one on my list. I just got a little tipsy at my first real high school party freshman year and next thing I knew I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I always liked to party and have a good time I would drink and just throw myself at any cute guy that was there.
So my current Justin situation wasn’t new for me but even though I liked being able to let loose and have fun I didn’t want to be branded as a whore for the rest of my life. I didn’t want to lose my virginity to some guy that I didn’t even know at a party but that’s how it happened. There was no going back and changing what happened that night so from then on I didn’t really seem to mind going all the way with someone.
But for some reason this lust I had for Justin was different from the others. I decided against my better judgment and let Justin take my bathing suit top and bottoms of while I pulled off his boxers. This time doing it felt right like it was a natural thing for Justin and I to be on this level of sexual intimacy even when we known each other for an amazingly short amount of time. We were now in the bed once we were done we both laid down on our back taking a breath or two to calm our heartbeats, which at the time were beating out of our chests. It all happened so fast. This morning if you told me that I would be having s.ex with Justin Bieber later tonight I would have told you that you were crazy and to see a therapist pronto but now I just feel complete. Was it wrong for me to feel this way? With all the other guys I’ve slept with I never had this feeling like it was ok and it was meant to be I just felt used and un-needed.
I looked over at Justin to find him staring at me while I was thinking. I decided to be the first one to speak up. “Well that was…” I said not really knowing how to finish the sentence. I looked over at Justin thinking about this.
“Amazing.” He finished for me.
“Was that your first time?” I asked him. I actually wanted to know. I have no clue why it was important to me I guess I just wanted to know more about him.
“Second actually.” He said looking at me with a faraway look in his eyes. “My first time was with my girlfriend right before she died of leukemia.” He finished.
This made me really think. I couldn’t believe what he just said. Maybe he’s the one person who knows what it’s like losing someone you love unconditionally with all your heart. I looked over at him. He was still gazing off. Out of nowhere another question slipped through my lips.
“Did you love her?” I felt bad for asking. It was really none of my business but a part of me was longing to know.
“With all of my heart. I was shattered when she died.” He replied with the saddest look on his face. I’m guessing one that resembles mine when I think about the loss of my dad.
“I’m guessing that wasn’t your first time due to the obvious.” He said looking at me. It was time to spill my heart out to the one person I thought would never understand me the most.
“No, obviously not. Truthfully I lost count.” I said looking down ashamed of what I’ve don’t these past few years. Justin slowly lifted up my chin and kissed me. Quickly but passionately. Even the amazing feeling I got inside didn’t make me feel better.
“Hey what’s wrong? You don’t have to be ashamed of your past.” Justin said looking at me with truth in his eyes. Wow it just didn’t get any better then him did it? But little did he know there was and he was about to get my whole life story.
“You don’t get it Justin there is a lot to be ashamed about. I would go to parties and whore around. It’s amazing I never ended up pregnant. At least your first time was with someone you loved with all your heart.” I managed to get out with tears coming down my face as I continued,”and the worst part is that I can’t even remember my first time or who it was with. Some guy I met at a party who got me a little tipsy and next thing I know I wake up naked in a bed alone with a terrible hangover. I’m sorry your hearing all this and I understand if you don’t’ want to be with a person like me.” I said tearing my eyes away from Justin’s gaze and looked at the wall. I was just waiting to hear him walk out form under the covers and leave this room when he spoke up.
“How could you say that?” I have never felt anything like the connection between us before. Yes, I loved my girlfriend before she died but I can still move on and live my life. It took us a while to get the stage we were at in our relationship, for me to love her as much as I did but instantly when I say you and looked into those beautiful eyes I fell head over heels and if something happened to you I wouldn’t be able to move on. How could I when you couldn’t live the life you should?”
I turned back toward Justin and curled up in his chest while he comforted me until I had calmed down enough to stop crying and pull away. “The worst part is.” I said looking into his gorgeous chocolaty brown eyes as I continued, ”I wasn’t doing it because I liked going to parties and getting drunk and have another guy take another part of me away, I did it to get back at my father for leaving to Iraq. I always told myself that I did it because I chose to or because I wanted this to happen it but I was just lying to myself. It was a selfish thing to do but it was the only thing I could think of and I thought for sure it was going to work, that he was going come back and see what was happening and what had already happened to me and he wouldn’t go back he would stay with me so we could be together again. But, he never found out because he never came back.” Crap the waterworks came again but I didn’t try to be strong and stop them. I just let the tears take over my body. I have never told anyone this before not even my best friends in the whole wide world. They don’t even know that I lost my virginity freshman year. I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my chest. I think God gave me a miracle the one thing I needed. And that thing just so happened to go by the name Justin Bieber.
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Ok so I really hope you like this chapter because I had just finished it and was walking into the other room to get something to drink and when I came back my computer shut down and erased the whole thing so yeah I was sooo pissed it took me forever haha so yeah . Oh and the girl in the sidebar is Alexa.
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It felt good to start over, it made me realize that I had wanted to from the start when I was rude to Justin. I had always wanted to apologize I felt bad for being mean to him, I know I didn’t like him but if he was anyone else pretty much I wouldn’t act like that, I wasn’t raised that way. If my dad were here he would be disappointed in me. I always thought that way you know how everyone here says WWJD like what would Jesus do, well for me it was always WWDB what would dad do. I wasn’t like the perfect daughter, believe me I have done some things that I’m definitely not proud of but I still do my best.
My conversation with Justin was pretty short it was mostly about him. Every time he asked me a question about my life that was affected by my dad’s death I always found some way to deflect it back at him. I wasn’t going to share something so meaningful to me with someone I just met. It wasn’t easy for me to share this with anyone, yes they all try to comfort me and tell me how sorry they are but they don’t know what it’s like, they don’t know what I’m going through. I don’t want to be comforted or for someone to tell me it was going to be ok, because I just knew deep down it wasn’t. I still had to go to a therapist, I still had to take anti-depression pills, and I still had to go through life everyday knowing that my dad can never come back. Try living with that burden on your heart then lets here you say how sorry you are.
I snapped out of it when I realized there was a hand waving in my face. It was Justin’s. I must have zoned out because I have no idea what just happened.
“Taylor are you alright? You kind of just zoned out.” Justin said looking at me with a strange look on his face.
“Huh, oh yeah I’m fine. Thanks Justin, but I think I better go home now.” I replied standing up from my stop on a little outside couch.
“Ok, I guess I’ll see you at school tomorrow.” He said.
“Yeah, ok. Hey how are you getting to school tomorrow?” I asked.
“Um I don’t know I haven’t really thought about it.” He stated looking at me.
“Well if you want I can take you. I leave try to leave at eight every day so if you want you can tag along.” He probably wouldn’t want to drive with me. He probably had some fancy car he got from one of his famous friends.
“That’d be great thanks.” He said looking at me. Well at least now I don’t feel like an idiot for asking him. “And if you want, I can drive on Wednesday.” He finished.
“Sounds good. I’ll see you later Justin.” I said giving him a hug and kiss on the cheek before turning to walk toward my backyard. I could feel his eyes on me before I closed the gate cutting off the connection between us.
I made my way back over to my chair and grabbed my homework off the little table next to it and put my headphones in. I was just about to play “Just a Dream” by Nelly when I heard the front door slam and my sister yelling that she was home.
“Taylor I’m home. Where are you?” Alexa yelled from the house.
“I’m in the back Lex.” I said putting my itouch down sadly not getting a chance to start my song.
“Hey is someone moving in next door I saw a moving truck in the driveway, but that place has been deserted for ages.” She said nodding in the direction of Justin’s new house.
“Yep you know that kid you love so much?” I said grabbing my itouch ready to blast the music after I tell her. My sister is like crazy obsessed I don’t know how her boyfriend deals with it. I would probably dump her when I walked into her room for the first time. Every visible inch of her blue walls was now covered with Justin Bieber posters, magazine pictures, and everything else Justin Bieber you can imagine. It was crazy how much she loved this kid. He was just as normal as me and you. Well, besides the fact that he’s the most famous 16 year old in the world but you know once you forget about that part.
I set the volume all the way up on my itouch and put both headphones in my ears getting ready to press play as I looked at the confused expression she had on her face. With my finger hovering over the screen I said, “Justin Bieber just moved in next door,” and tapped the screen so the song would play. I watched as her face went from super excited to really pissed off. I took out my headphones confused.
“I though you would have been excited. And from the look on your face you’re not.” I said looking at her fuming.
“That’s not funny Taylor. I hate it when you joke with me like that.” She said looking at me. I should have guessed she wouldn’t believe me after all this wasn’t the first time I have said something like this to her. So I could kind of understand where she was coming from, but what she didn’t know was that this time I was actually dead serious. I paused my music and put my headphones back in. I didn’t want them blaring before she started screaming. I looked at her for a second and got up and walked over to the gate separating mine and Justin’s backyards. I opened the gate to find him still back there but this time sitting on the couch we were on earlier with a guitar in his hands.
“Hey Justin.” I said waiting for him to look up from the sheet of music on his lap.
“Back so soon. Well I can’t blame you.” He smirked.
“Your so funny-“ I fake laughed and continued,”-as I was getting to before my sister just got home and she is like you biggest fan.” I looked at him waiting to see his expression.
“And…” he said edging me to go on.
“Right, well she doesn’t believe me that you are our new neighbor because this isn’t the first time I have said something like this to her. So… I was wondering if you could come to my house really quick if you don’t mind.” I said with a hopeful look on my face.
“Sure.” He said with a smile on his face while setting his guitar next to him on the couch and standing up.
“Thanks you have no idea what this would mean for her and me.” Smiling I added, “Oh by the way, you may want to wear ear plugs she has a really high-pitched scream.” Laughing he said it was fine and I took his hand and led him to my back door. I opened it and pulled him inside with me.
“She’s probably upstairs in her room, but if you don’t mind we are going to stop at my room really quick so I can put a pair of shorts on.” Looking down at myself still in my bathing suit. I took him up the stairs and to my room first. He sat down on my bed while I walked over to one of my dressers and grabbed a cute little pair of shorts. I grabbed his hand again bracing myself for what was soon to come when my sister saw him. I opened my sister’s door and she was facing the wall getting something out of one of her drawers with her headphones in. I sent Justin forward and he tapped her on the shoulder. I swear I lost my hearing for a minute there. I warned him. She had the most surprised look on her face like she couldn’t believe what she just saw. All of a sudden I saw her swaying a little bit until she almost hit the floor passed out when Justin caught her and set her on her bed.
“Oh my god! Do you think she is going to be ok?” I asked looking over at Justin. He pulled two ear plugs out of his ears. Ugh so he did wear them he must have had a spare pair on him playing the drums and everything.
“Would you mind not yelling.” He said with a smirk on his face.
“Well since I thought you weren’t going to wear ear plugs or headphones I didn’t thanks for the heads up.” I glared at him. But I couldn’t help but laugh as he was cracking up.
“You were so right and yes she’s going to be ok. She just fainted we’ll just leave her here but let’s get a wet towel on her forehead.” He said like he’s been dealing with these situations forever. I did what he told me to do and then we decided to hang out by the pool until she woke up.
It was sunset and it looked absolutely beautiful. That’s one of the things I liked the best about my house here, we were high up on a hill and you could see the city below you with the ocean in the very distance. It was something to take your breath away.
A cold breeze swept through the half-sunlit sky and shivers were sent down my spine. I guess Justin noticed because he pulled me into a hug making us very close and my body instantly warmer. With every touch of our skin I felt an electric current soaring through my veins. I looked at his face, illuminated perfectly from the sunset making him look instantly hotter then ever. He was staring at me and I him. All of a sudden our lips touched and I couldn’t keep myself from kissing him back. The feeling of butterflies swept through my stomach as my knees went weak and fireworks sounded in the background. What was so wrong about this?
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It felt good to start over, it made me realize that I had wanted to from the start when I was rude to Justin. I had always wanted to apologize I felt bad for being mean to him, I know I didn’t like him but if he was anyone else pretty much I wouldn’t act like that, I wasn’t raised that way. If my dad were here he would be disappointed in me. I always thought that way you know how everyone here says WWJD like what would Jesus do, well for me it was always WWDB what would dad do. I wasn’t like the perfect daughter, believe me I have done some things that I’m definitely not proud of but I still do my best.
My conversation with Justin was pretty short it was mostly about him. Every time he asked me a question about my life that was affected by my dad’s death I always found some way to deflect it back at him. I wasn’t going to share something so meaningful to me with someone I just met. It wasn’t easy for me to share this with anyone, yes they all try to comfort me and tell me how sorry they are but they don’t know what it’s like, they don’t know what I’m going through. I don’t want to be comforted or for someone to tell me it was going to be ok, because I just knew deep down it wasn’t. I still had to go to a therapist, I still had to take anti-depression pills, and I still had to go through life everyday knowing that my dad can never come back. Try living with that burden on your heart then lets here you say how sorry you are.
I snapped out of it when I realized there was a hand waving in my face. It was Justin’s. I must have zoned out because I have no idea what just happened.
“Taylor are you alright? You kind of just zoned out.” Justin said looking at me with a strange look on his face.
“Huh, oh yeah I’m fine. Thanks Justin, but I think I better go home now.” I replied standing up from my stop on a little outside couch.
“Ok, I guess I’ll see you at school tomorrow.” He said.
“Yeah, ok. Hey how are you getting to school tomorrow?” I asked.
“Um I don’t know I haven’t really thought about it.” He stated looking at me.
“Well if you want I can take you. I leave try to leave at eight every day so if you want you can tag along.” He probably wouldn’t want to drive with me. He probably had some fancy car he got from one of his famous friends.
“That’d be great thanks.” He said looking at me. Well at least now I don’t feel like an idiot for asking him. “And if you want, I can drive on Wednesday.” He finished.
“Sounds good. I’ll see you later Justin.” I said giving him a hug and kiss on the cheek before turning to walk toward my backyard. I could feel his eyes on me before I closed the gate cutting off the connection between us.
I made my way back over to my chair and grabbed my homework off the little table next to it and put my headphones in. I was just about to play “Just a Dream” by Nelly when I heard the front door slam and my sister yelling that she was home.
“Taylor I’m home. Where are you?” Alexa yelled from the house.
“I’m in the back Lex.” I said putting my itouch down sadly not getting a chance to start my song.
“Hey is someone moving in next door I saw a moving truck in the driveway, but that place has been deserted for ages.” She said nodding in the direction of Justin’s new house.
“Yep you know that kid you love so much?” I said grabbing my itouch ready to blast the music after I tell her. My sister is like crazy obsessed I don’t know how her boyfriend deals with it. I would probably dump her when I walked into her room for the first time. Every visible inch of her blue walls was now covered with Justin Bieber posters, magazine pictures, and everything else Justin Bieber you can imagine. It was crazy how much she loved this kid. He was just as normal as me and you. Well, besides the fact that he’s the most famous 16 year old in the world but you know once you forget about that part.
I set the volume all the way up on my itouch and put both headphones in my ears getting ready to press play as I looked at the confused expression she had on her face. With my finger hovering over the screen I said, “Justin Bieber just moved in next door,” and tapped the screen so the song would play. I watched as her face went from super excited to really pissed off. I took out my headphones confused.
“I though you would have been excited. And from the look on your face you’re not.” I said looking at her fuming.
“That’s not funny Taylor. I hate it when you joke with me like that.” She said looking at me. I should have guessed she wouldn’t believe me after all this wasn’t the first time I have said something like this to her. So I could kind of understand where she was coming from, but what she didn’t know was that this time I was actually dead serious. I paused my music and put my headphones back in. I didn’t want them blaring before she started screaming. I looked at her for a second and got up and walked over to the gate separating mine and Justin’s backyards. I opened the gate to find him still back there but this time sitting on the couch we were on earlier with a guitar in his hands.
“Hey Justin.” I said waiting for him to look up from the sheet of music on his lap.
“Back so soon. Well I can’t blame you.” He smirked.
“Your so funny-“ I fake laughed and continued,”-as I was getting to before my sister just got home and she is like you biggest fan.” I looked at him waiting to see his expression.
“And…” he said edging me to go on.
“Right, well she doesn’t believe me that you are our new neighbor because this isn’t the first time I have said something like this to her. So… I was wondering if you could come to my house really quick if you don’t mind.” I said with a hopeful look on my face.
“Sure.” He said with a smile on his face while setting his guitar next to him on the couch and standing up.
“Thanks you have no idea what this would mean for her and me.” Smiling I added, “Oh by the way, you may want to wear ear plugs she has a really high-pitched scream.” Laughing he said it was fine and I took his hand and led him to my back door. I opened it and pulled him inside with me.
“She’s probably upstairs in her room, but if you don’t mind we are going to stop at my room really quick so I can put a pair of shorts on.” Looking down at myself still in my bathing suit. I took him up the stairs and to my room first. He sat down on my bed while I walked over to one of my dressers and grabbed a cute little pair of shorts. I grabbed his hand again bracing myself for what was soon to come when my sister saw him. I opened my sister’s door and she was facing the wall getting something out of one of her drawers with her headphones in. I sent Justin forward and he tapped her on the shoulder. I swear I lost my hearing for a minute there. I warned him. She had the most surprised look on her face like she couldn’t believe what she just saw. All of a sudden I saw her swaying a little bit until she almost hit the floor passed out when Justin caught her and set her on her bed.
“Oh my god! Do you think she is going to be ok?” I asked looking over at Justin. He pulled two ear plugs out of his ears. Ugh so he did wear them he must have had a spare pair on him playing the drums and everything.
“Would you mind not yelling.” He said with a smirk on his face.
“Well since I thought you weren’t going to wear ear plugs or headphones I didn’t thanks for the heads up.” I glared at him. But I couldn’t help but laugh as he was cracking up.
“You were so right and yes she’s going to be ok. She just fainted we’ll just leave her here but let’s get a wet towel on her forehead.” He said like he’s been dealing with these situations forever. I did what he told me to do and then we decided to hang out by the pool until she woke up.
It was sunset and it looked absolutely beautiful. That’s one of the things I liked the best about my house here, we were high up on a hill and you could see the city below you with the ocean in the very distance. It was something to take your breath away.
A cold breeze swept through the half-sunlit sky and shivers were sent down my spine. I guess Justin noticed because he pulled me into a hug making us very close and my body instantly warmer. With every touch of our skin I felt an electric current soaring through my veins. I looked at his face, illuminated perfectly from the sunset making him look instantly hotter then ever. He was staring at me and I him. All of a sudden our lips touched and I couldn’t keep myself from kissing him back. The feeling of butterflies swept through my stomach as my knees went weak and fireworks sounded in the background. What was so wrong about this?
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Ok so like I said I was going to make another chapter tonight it’s just that everything has been so hectic with school and finals and a guy it’s just… so yeah I’m going to make one! <3 Sorry its going to be super short I’ve got to get some sleep for finals tomorrow!!!!
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I saw the cute little boy and girl but they weren’t the only ones outside. I was facing Justin. Yes you guessed it, Justin Bieber. He was standing there with a basketball in his hands and a t-shirt with black basketball shorts and a backwards facing hat looking right at me. Looking sexy I might add. I know I may not really like this kid but that doesn’t mean he wasn’t hot. And what was I wearing? A string bikini with my Gucci sunglasses and my itouch in my hand suddenly beginning to feel a slight bit embarrassed that I came over here like this. My face turned a violent shade of pink as I proceeded to the gate like nothing had happened until I was stopped by a hand on my shoulder. I turned around face to face with Justin. “Hey, you can’t just live my back-yard in a bikini without an explanation.” He said with a smirk on his face. “I just came over to see what that bouncing noise was I was trying to concentrate but it just kept pounding in my head.” He looked at me trying to think of something to reply. “Sorry I didn’t know it would bother anyone I just like hanging out with my little brother and sister and having some alone time.” He started turning away. Now I felt bad I had been a tad rude before, now was my chance to say sorry. “Look I’m sorry about that I’m just not used to other people being home around here, this is my only alone time too.” He turned around at that and kind of half-smiled at me. “It’s all good. I’m sorry about today too, I get that you don’t like me I’ll just back off.” This is not what I wanted yes, in the beginning those were the exact words that I wanted to hear more then anything but isn’t it supposed to feel good that I got what I wanted. This wasn’t like that I had to do something. “Look Justin, I never said that I didn’t like you, it’s just that I don’t know you. You come off as the jock type; getting every girl you want then even bothering to think about them an hour after you last see them, the type of guys that I can’t stand, and the type of guy that makes me mad because I’ve been through more then you can understand and being friends or even dating someone like that is too much for me to even comprehend.” I said. The look on his face showed me that I had made my point. “Look I get that I may come off that way but I would never treat a girl like that. I would protect her and take care of her.” He said with the up-most sincerity in his eyes. Ok maybe if he put that into one of his songs I might kinda like it. I smiled to myself maybe this kid wasn’t so bad after all his looks definitely weren’t. “Good to know. Then why don’t we start over?” He matched my smile and replied. “I would like that.” After a couple seconds of us just looking at each other I decided to speak first. “Hi, I’m Taylor.” I waited for his response. “Nice to meet you Taylor. I’m Justin.” I already felt that this doomed to be terrible day was getting better.
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I saw the cute little boy and girl but they weren’t the only ones outside. I was facing Justin. Yes you guessed it, Justin Bieber. He was standing there with a basketball in his hands and a t-shirt with black basketball shorts and a backwards facing hat looking right at me. Looking sexy I might add. I know I may not really like this kid but that doesn’t mean he wasn’t hot. And what was I wearing? A string bikini with my Gucci sunglasses and my itouch in my hand suddenly beginning to feel a slight bit embarrassed that I came over here like this. My face turned a violent shade of pink as I proceeded to the gate like nothing had happened until I was stopped by a hand on my shoulder. I turned around face to face with Justin. “Hey, you can’t just live my back-yard in a bikini without an explanation.” He said with a smirk on his face. “I just came over to see what that bouncing noise was I was trying to concentrate but it just kept pounding in my head.” He looked at me trying to think of something to reply. “Sorry I didn’t know it would bother anyone I just like hanging out with my little brother and sister and having some alone time.” He started turning away. Now I felt bad I had been a tad rude before, now was my chance to say sorry. “Look I’m sorry about that I’m just not used to other people being home around here, this is my only alone time too.” He turned around at that and kind of half-smiled at me. “It’s all good. I’m sorry about today too, I get that you don’t like me I’ll just back off.” This is not what I wanted yes, in the beginning those were the exact words that I wanted to hear more then anything but isn’t it supposed to feel good that I got what I wanted. This wasn’t like that I had to do something. “Look Justin, I never said that I didn’t like you, it’s just that I don’t know you. You come off as the jock type; getting every girl you want then even bothering to think about them an hour after you last see them, the type of guys that I can’t stand, and the type of guy that makes me mad because I’ve been through more then you can understand and being friends or even dating someone like that is too much for me to even comprehend.” I said. The look on his face showed me that I had made my point. “Look I get that I may come off that way but I would never treat a girl like that. I would protect her and take care of her.” He said with the up-most sincerity in his eyes. Ok maybe if he put that into one of his songs I might kinda like it. I smiled to myself maybe this kid wasn’t so bad after all his looks definitely weren’t. “Good to know. Then why don’t we start over?” He matched my smile and replied. “I would like that.” After a couple seconds of us just looking at each other I decided to speak first. “Hi, I’m Taylor.” I waited for his response. “Nice to meet you Taylor. I’m Justin.” I already felt that this doomed to be terrible day was getting better.
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I made it to ch.2! Haha I hope you like it I changed my ideas about it so… Yeah. I like this better I hope you do to. <3 By the way, Taylor only has 3 classes a day because she has something called block schedule so it switches between 3 odd classes, 1, 3, and 5, and then the next day she has 3 even classes, 2, 4, and 6, and then odd again so you get the point. Also the links are kinda long I’m sorry but they kinda give you a better feel for the story and what her life is like. N I’m super sorry it took this long I promise ill try n post another one tonight.
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Third period finally ended and surprisingly I was able to pretty much avoid Justin for most of the class period. I started walking to lunch and I found Gina. She looked overly happy and the skipping didn’t really help. “What’s up with you, you look like you just won the lottery and found out you didn’t have to go to school?” This is seriously what she looked like btw so you can imagine why I would be surprised this was different then normal Gina. Normal Gina is always the serious one out of me and Akemi, believe me she knows how to have fun too but she was never this happy at school. “Oh, nothing. Just the fact that today’s been a great day.” She replied. I knew it, I knew it! She was happy about Bieber. I mean I shouldn’t be surprised she’s as obsessed as my sister. “Come on love bird lets go meet Akemi in the quad (if you guys don’t know what a quad is, it’s this huge open area in the middle of the school). Since we have an outside cafeteria we usually hang out in the quad or on the benches near the front of the school. We usually meet up with some other people like friends from our other classes. There was a huge group of screaming girls in the center of the quad. What the heck is going on? I walked over and asked a young looking freshman girl why everyone was in a huge huddle. “Haven’t you heard?” I gave her a questioning look. “Heard what?” Do freshman think I know everything that goes on in the big school? It was starting to piss me off when she rolled her eyes and replied. “Justin Bieber of course.” I should have known. I walked back over to Akemi and Gina and told them. Akemi had a look on her face that told me she was just as annoyed as me which made me feel better but Gina got that glint in her eye. “Go ahead meet him, me and Akemi will be over there.” I said looking at Gina and pointing to our usual area. Without a second glance she hurried toward the group of girls just leaving me and Akemi. “Let’s just let her be, it’s not every day a ‘star’ comes to our school of all places.” I told Akemi while putting air quotes when I said star. If it was any other celebrity we probably would have been excited but this one just left us annoyed. While we sat over and ate lunch I was thinking about how Bieber was kinda cute when he tried to talk to me and his eyes made me feel safe like I could be happy again. There must be something wrong with me one, he’s famous two, he’s a player and last but not least three, why would he ever want to go out with me? I eventually just gave up, this boy frustrates me and I haven’t even known him for 24 hours. I don’t know what it is about him but he’s playing with my head. The bell rang again signaling the end of lunch. I seriously need to do something to get this boy off my mind. I know had History which is one of my favorite classed due to the fact that we did absolutely nothing and pretty much just slept. I walked into the classroom and took my seat between Arthur and Andrew, they were part of the reason I liked this class so much besides the first fact. Sometimes when they fell asleep I’d write funny stuff on them with pink highlighter like: I love Taylor! Or just random things I was thinking about or we talked about. But instead today I was going to write a song just to get all my feelings out. I know this may sound weird but I really like to sing and write songs but I’ve never told anyone before. I’ve been really self-conscious about a lot of things since my dad and sometimes this helped I guess in this way I was kinda like Taylor Swift, no not the fact that we both had the same name, but that we put our lives and feelings into our songs. Only my dad knew this about me sometimes I would actually even sing him my songs but I always made him promise that he wouldn’t tell anyone about the fact that I liked singing or about my songs. I snapped back into reality as Mrs. Vinas gave us our class work and homework for the day.
*SKIP*
I almost finished the song it seemed pretty good as I hummed it to myself. I was putting it away when the bell rang once again but this finally meant that today was over. I walked over to my car and hopped in. I didn’t really feel the need to say goodbye to Akemi and Gina due to the fact that they are most likely coming over later like they always do. I turned the radio up so I could here the song and Pray by Justin Bieber came on. I just couldn’t escape him could I. Maybe this meant something… or maybe I’m just hoping it meant something. My house is only a couple minutes away from school. When I pulled into the driveway I noticed that the house on the right of mine had moving people in front of it. It’s about time someone bought that house it has been on the market forever (http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.blogcdn.com/www.luxist.com/media/2008/03/avanhalen3.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.luxist.com/tag/encino/&usg=__gkJP2jCiZgNlUQGEAD1xg5RywLU=&h=300&w=450&sz=65&hl=en&start=116&zoom=1&tbnid=nB3QDwaVW3IQ9M:&tbnh=138&tbnw=184&ei=UJIzTaDhMJK6sQOE0uDWBQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dlarge%2Bcalifornia%2Bhome%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1020%26bih%3D610%26gbv%3D2%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C4365&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=317&vpy=205&dur=218&hovh=183&hovw=275&tx=160&ty=99&oei=VpEzTZXhLJScsQP9y9HBBQ&esq=5&page=10&ndsp=12&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:116&biw=1020&bih=610) . We aren’t like super rich but I have to admit my family has some money but I am defiantly not spoiled rich b**** type. My mom is a successful lawyer and we got a lot of money from the army while my dad was in Iraq and also after he didn’t come back. People aren’t really buying houses these days because of the economy so even though it’s a beautiful house it was just too much for a lot of people to afford. I got out of my car (http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https://www.sportscarrentalsonline.com/dataimages/Sport%2520Prestige%2520Rentalp9n1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.sportscarrentalsonline.com/sydney/sportscar%3Fct%3Drentals%26md%3Dsecond%26id%3D9&usg=__mMbuHfXddFh3RGcs4a7T1MI-zLQ=&h=230&w=370&sz=27&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=UuK1L5OjeqYPyM:&tbnh=139&tbnw=191&ei=8JIzTa3NFYvUtQOG2cCsBQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dconvertible%2Bmercedes%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1020%26bih%3D610%26gbv%3D2%26tbs%3Disch:1&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=117&vpy=273&dur=32&hovh=177&hovw=285&tx=138&ty=108&oei=8JIzTa3NFYvUtQOG2cCsBQ&esq=1&page=1&ndsp=12&ved=1t:429,r:4,s:0). I wonder whose moving into that house I really hope they have a cute son. There are a ton of girls and people without children that live on my block and it’s always nice to have a cute boy live right next to you or even close to you. Am I right? I walked into my house and went straight for the fridge, a couple of years ago I wouldn’t be home right now because of soccer practice but that was before everything in my life got screwed up. This subject always made me depressed so I changed my thoughts very quickly. I decided on a cold piece of pizza and then I chose to tan by the pool while doing my homework and listening to my itouch. My mom won’t be home until around 6 because of work and my sister will probably get home around 5:30 because she has cheer practice. This was my time to kick back and relax by the pool and just be alone. Sometime I would have Akemi and Gina come over but other days I just need some time to think and today was defiantly one of those days. I put on my cute different colored, halter, zebra print bikini and grabbed my itouch and my math book before heading out to the pool (bikini on sidebar). I was about to put it on shuffle when I heard a ball bouncing next door. Usually I didn’t have any other distractions because the people on the left of me were workaholics and the house on the right was always empty, so this was new to me and I couldn’t get the annoying pounding out of my head to I decided to go to the gate that separated out backyards. At first when I opened the door I only saw a little adorable boy and girl but that wasn’t what shocked me. That surprise came next. And that surprise could have been the very thing that would make my life interesting from this point on.
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Third period finally ended and surprisingly I was able to pretty much avoid Justin for most of the class period. I started walking to lunch and I found Gina. She looked overly happy and the skipping didn’t really help. “What’s up with you, you look like you just won the lottery and found out you didn’t have to go to school?” This is seriously what she looked like btw so you can imagine why I would be surprised this was different then normal Gina. Normal Gina is always the serious one out of me and Akemi, believe me she knows how to have fun too but she was never this happy at school. “Oh, nothing. Just the fact that today’s been a great day.” She replied. I knew it, I knew it! She was happy about Bieber. I mean I shouldn’t be surprised she’s as obsessed as my sister. “Come on love bird lets go meet Akemi in the quad (if you guys don’t know what a quad is, it’s this huge open area in the middle of the school). Since we have an outside cafeteria we usually hang out in the quad or on the benches near the front of the school. We usually meet up with some other people like friends from our other classes. There was a huge group of screaming girls in the center of the quad. What the heck is going on? I walked over and asked a young looking freshman girl why everyone was in a huge huddle. “Haven’t you heard?” I gave her a questioning look. “Heard what?” Do freshman think I know everything that goes on in the big school? It was starting to piss me off when she rolled her eyes and replied. “Justin Bieber of course.” I should have known. I walked back over to Akemi and Gina and told them. Akemi had a look on her face that told me she was just as annoyed as me which made me feel better but Gina got that glint in her eye. “Go ahead meet him, me and Akemi will be over there.” I said looking at Gina and pointing to our usual area. Without a second glance she hurried toward the group of girls just leaving me and Akemi. “Let’s just let her be, it’s not every day a ‘star’ comes to our school of all places.” I told Akemi while putting air quotes when I said star. If it was any other celebrity we probably would have been excited but this one just left us annoyed. While we sat over and ate lunch I was thinking about how Bieber was kinda cute when he tried to talk to me and his eyes made me feel safe like I could be happy again. There must be something wrong with me one, he’s famous two, he’s a player and last but not least three, why would he ever want to go out with me? I eventually just gave up, this boy frustrates me and I haven’t even known him for 24 hours. I don’t know what it is about him but he’s playing with my head. The bell rang again signaling the end of lunch. I seriously need to do something to get this boy off my mind. I know had History which is one of my favorite classed due to the fact that we did absolutely nothing and pretty much just slept. I walked into the classroom and took my seat between Arthur and Andrew, they were part of the reason I liked this class so much besides the first fact. Sometimes when they fell asleep I’d write funny stuff on them with pink highlighter like: I love Taylor! Or just random things I was thinking about or we talked about. But instead today I was going to write a song just to get all my feelings out. I know this may sound weird but I really like to sing and write songs but I’ve never told anyone before. I’ve been really self-conscious about a lot of things since my dad and sometimes this helped I guess in this way I was kinda like Taylor Swift, no not the fact that we both had the same name, but that we put our lives and feelings into our songs. Only my dad knew this about me sometimes I would actually even sing him my songs but I always made him promise that he wouldn’t tell anyone about the fact that I liked singing or about my songs. I snapped back into reality as Mrs. Vinas gave us our class work and homework for the day.
*SKIP*
I almost finished the song it seemed pretty good as I hummed it to myself. I was putting it away when the bell rang once again but this finally meant that today was over. I walked over to my car and hopped in. I didn’t really feel the need to say goodbye to Akemi and Gina due to the fact that they are most likely coming over later like they always do. I turned the radio up so I could here the song and Pray by Justin Bieber came on. I just couldn’t escape him could I. Maybe this meant something… or maybe I’m just hoping it meant something. My house is only a couple minutes away from school. When I pulled into the driveway I noticed that the house on the right of mine had moving people in front of it. It’s about time someone bought that house it has been on the market forever (http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.blogcdn.com/www.luxist.com/media/2008/03/avanhalen3.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.luxist.com/tag/encino/&usg=__gkJP2jCiZgNlUQGEAD1xg5RywLU=&h=300&w=450&sz=65&hl=en&start=116&zoom=1&tbnid=nB3QDwaVW3IQ9M:&tbnh=138&tbnw=184&ei=UJIzTaDhMJK6sQOE0uDWBQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dlarge%2Bcalifornia%2Bhome%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1020%26bih%3D610%26gbv%3D2%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C4365&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=317&vpy=205&dur=218&hovh=183&hovw=275&tx=160&ty=99&oei=VpEzTZXhLJScsQP9y9HBBQ&esq=5&page=10&ndsp=12&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:116&biw=1020&bih=610) . We aren’t like super rich but I have to admit my family has some money but I am defiantly not spoiled rich b**** type. My mom is a successful lawyer and we got a lot of money from the army while my dad was in Iraq and also after he didn’t come back. People aren’t really buying houses these days because of the economy so even though it’s a beautiful house it was just too much for a lot of people to afford. I got out of my car (http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https://www.sportscarrentalsonline.com/dataimages/Sport%2520Prestige%2520Rentalp9n1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.sportscarrentalsonline.com/sydney/sportscar%3Fct%3Drentals%26md%3Dsecond%26id%3D9&usg=__mMbuHfXddFh3RGcs4a7T1MI-zLQ=&h=230&w=370&sz=27&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=UuK1L5OjeqYPyM:&tbnh=139&tbnw=191&ei=8JIzTa3NFYvUtQOG2cCsBQ&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dconvertible%2Bmercedes%26hl%3Den%26biw%3D1020%26bih%3D610%26gbv%3D2%26tbs%3Disch:1&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=117&vpy=273&dur=32&hovh=177&hovw=285&tx=138&ty=108&oei=8JIzTa3NFYvUtQOG2cCsBQ&esq=1&page=1&ndsp=12&ved=1t:429,r:4,s:0). I wonder whose moving into that house I really hope they have a cute son. There are a ton of girls and people without children that live on my block and it’s always nice to have a cute boy live right next to you or even close to you. Am I right? I walked into my house and went straight for the fridge, a couple of years ago I wouldn’t be home right now because of soccer practice but that was before everything in my life got screwed up. This subject always made me depressed so I changed my thoughts very quickly. I decided on a cold piece of pizza and then I chose to tan by the pool while doing my homework and listening to my itouch. My mom won’t be home until around 6 because of work and my sister will probably get home around 5:30 because she has cheer practice. This was my time to kick back and relax by the pool and just be alone. Sometime I would have Akemi and Gina come over but other days I just need some time to think and today was defiantly one of those days. I put on my cute different colored, halter, zebra print bikini and grabbed my itouch and my math book before heading out to the pool (bikini on sidebar). I was about to put it on shuffle when I heard a ball bouncing next door. Usually I didn’t have any other distractions because the people on the left of me were workaholics and the house on the right was always empty, so this was new to me and I couldn’t get the annoying pounding out of my head to I decided to go to the gate that separated out backyards. At first when I opened the door I only saw a little adorable boy and girl but that wasn’t what shocked me. That surprise came next. And that surprise could have been the very thing that would make my life interesting from this point on.
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